How do you act when you talk to God? Do you act weird? Does it matter?
When I got saved, I was very self-conscious in church. I did not know how to act because I was not a big church-goer like everyone else. Church was new territory and I was desperate to fit in. My goal was to be a happy, cooperative, “behind the scenes, make no waves” son in the great big Family of God.
In our church it is not difficult to fit in. Everyone is warm and friendly, kind and caring, never putting on airs. A “what you see is what you get” kind of attitude.
Well, you can imagine my surprise when one Sunday morning in church Holy Spirit told me to drop down on my knees and pray.
My gut response? “Forget about it. There is no way I am going to get on my knees in front of all these people I hardly know and act weird. No one will talk to me again!”
Holy Spirit would not let it go. A hungry dog with a meaty bone. “Worship me, my son. It would make me so happy. Show me how well you hear me and how close we’ve become. Who cares what others think? Don’t let fear hold you back. Come alive in me!”
I remember groaning to myself and thinking, “You really want me to do this? Now? In front of all these people?”
“Yes….Do it…For me.”
I took a deep breath, gathered up my courage, stood up in front of the whole church, and dropped straight down to my knees in prayer. A massive spotlight appeared overhead shining brightly down on me for the whole world to see. Self-conscious? Awkward? Wishing a gaping hole would suddenly appear and swallow me up? You better believe it!
“There. Happy now?” I said to Holy Spirit in a frustrated and sarcastic tone, wondering what I was doing there.
Holy Spirit slipped inside, filled my spirit to the brim and I vanished from the world. One second I was on my knees in church and the next I was on my knees in warm, soft sand on a tropical beach far, far away. Palm trees swayed in the breeze, waves broke the shore, birds danced and sang in the wind, and the warm sun lit up my face. I overflowed with peace, serenity, ecstasy, joy, love, comfort, fulfillment…all the blessed feelings Holy Spirit gives us when He steps into the room and fills us with His presence.
This was my reward for stepping out of my shell and obeying His voice. A pure, blissful connection. Perfect unity and harmony. Listening to Holy Spirit speak into my spirit and turning off what the world had to say about my life. It was an important lesson and one I never forgot.
Today my life in church is different. Before Holy Spirit has a chance to speak I beat Him to the punch and ask, “So, what do you want me to do this morning? Stand, sit, kneel, fall flat on my face, talk to the wall, sing out loud, pace back and forth, speak in tongues, speak in English, close my eyes, open my eyes, walk around the church, sit in my chair, stand on my chair? Come on, Holy Spirit. Let’s connect!”
Worship is not how you appear to others. Worship is about connecting one on one with God, Jesus Christ, and Holy Spirit. Listen as carefully and closely as you can and do what they say. Even if it sounds crazy and makes no sense.
Don’t hold back. If Holy Spirit asks you to demonstrate your love, faith and obedience in unexpected ways, then go for it. Don’t be afraid to act weird in church, in your secret place, in your living room or wherever you pray and connect. Step out of your shell, open up in faith, and learn how He moves and operates in your life. Don’t push Him away fearing what others may think. Connect, secure and strengthen those ties that bind.
Behold, I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in to him and eat with him, and he with me. (Revelation 3:20)Act weird, be free in worship and prayer, and connect with Him Click To Tweet
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