Steffi Sees God
Where was I? Oh ya, I saw lights and movement. From behind the stage. At first I thought I was seeing things or Joe put on some kind of light show. Then these fireballs come shooting out from the stage and start flying around the church, up the walls, across the ceiling and back down again. Three huge fireballs and for some reason I thought they were God, Jesus Christ and Holy Spirit.
I know, I know. You think I’m whacked out right? Off my meds or something. Too much Nirvana when I was young. But I’m not like that. Total sober and sane. The thing is I didn’t actually see the fireballs. It was like I was dreaming. I was awake but dreaming at the same time. I tried to snap myself out of it but I couldn’t. Actually, I didn’t want to because what I was seeing was so awesome. Surrounded by God, Jesus and Holy Spirit. I truly thought I was off in heaven. Yup, it was that incredible. The song kept going and going and the lyrics were just killing me. Love, Jesus, joy, hope, freedom, salvation. All that stuff I did not pay any attention to suddenly became real and super important in my life.
Then things got even weirder.
Something told me to turn around. You know that feeling? Like someone taps you on the shoulder but you don’t want to see what’s behind you? Freaky, I know, and it was, believe me. Anyway, I turned around slowly and…I am not making this up…I see this gigantic angel floating down from the ceiling. This angel was huge, 50 feet tall. I got the feeling this angel’s name was Gabriel and he was coming for me. I didn’t know what to do. Half of me wanted to go running out of Joe’s church screaming my head off. I couldn’t do that, of course. Way too embarrassing, even for me. So I sat there with my head cranked around staring up at this massive angel coming right for me. When the angel got to me, he wrapped his wings around me and swallowed me whole. All I saw was white feathers and I felt this warm glow of love all around me. Gabriel tucked his head into my shoulders and loved on me like there was no tomorrow.
Well, if you thought I was crying before I was really crying now. A total sloppy mess of tears, that was me. Gabriel’s whispering stuff into my ear and my insides are melting in love.
Joe sees what’s going on and starts to clue in. He comes over and lays his hand on me and starts to pray. I feel all this junk leave my body. Pain, suffering, bitterness, jealousy, regret, sorrow, anger, hatred…it’s a long list. Taking out the trash. In its place, I feel love, joy, hope, strength, goodness, truth, freedom and peace. The biggest one is peace. I feel a peace I have never known before. Joe explains God took out the bad and put in the good. Inside I feel a tingling sensation too. A total body rush. A high I have never known before. Joe said this was Holy Spirit moving inside me. I never wanted it to end. It was like I was in heaven except I was sitting in a hard chair in a cold, draft church.
That’s how I got born again in the spirit. For some reason God decided it was time for a change. My old life was taken away and I was given a new one. When it was all over I was changed forever. It was quick – about 30 minutes – but when it was done I was a new creation in Christ and I looked at myself and the world in a whole, new way.
Joe flipped of course. He could not believe what happened to me. He’s seen it before, lots of times, but not to someone this close I guess. He dreamed it would happen to Brad and his mom but it didn’t. It happened to his sister-in-law instead. I was a total wreck afterwards but Joe and some of his buddies took me aside and explained what happened. I was so out of it and barely remembered anything they said to me. Luckily, Joe drove me home. I was in no condition to drive, that’s for sure. A complete wreck. Life changed entirely in 30 minutes. Never the same again.